Day: July 18th, 2011
Song: Zebra, by Beach House
Meal: Dinner- Cod, with Toasted Pine Nut Couscous and Salad + Prosecco
Admission: Whoa, what a complete reverse from the past few days I've had. I've gone from jam packed, people filled to no plans and utter solitude. This is usually my worst nightmare. I just get extremely antsy and seem to exhaust my go-tos (facebook, damn it, travel magazines, photo blogs) in record time. I killed an hour or two baking a pie (Frozen Key Lime, yummyYUMS), but other than that I just piddled around doing absolutely nothing. I HATE this. This is in part because it forces me to have a lot of time to think, which I probably just want to avoid. When it finally got nice enough to sit outside, I took a glass of prosecco onto the deck and forced myself to reflect. I came to realize and acknowledge that I am in many ways unsatisfied with how my life is. My job, where I live... I got frustrated and sad. And I also felt guilty, because my life is in no way shape or form BAD. I am so blessed in so many ways. It's just not what I envisioned for myself, I think. But the important thing I have to remember is that this is not what it's going to be forever. That's impossible. So what chapter is this going to be. How can I make the most of what my life is right this moment.
Ow. My head hurts.
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